The curse of imagination
Mar. 29th, 2007 07:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cmdr_zoomThe weather's been nice lately, but I keep reading things and having thoughts that send me off on weird, morbid, obsessive tangents about highly improbable events.
A week ago, it was considering how I'd survive and rebuild my life after being "zeroed" - the most comprehensive case, often involving time-travel, where other peoples' memories and even physical evidence of my past are erased. Today, it was how I'd go about tidying up my life and arranging for people to be notified if I somehow became aware that I was absolutely going to die tomorrow.
I've always had detailed but irrelevant brainstorming sessions like this (I've previously worked out how to ask for mercy from Baba Yaga, how I'd end my life in the case of a total civilization collapse, and a legal/moral argument about the injustice of shunning someone for being unsympathetic, and then for refusing to shun another). On some level, this is just how my mind works, taking certain problems as challenges to my intellect. But I also wonder if lately, working on these improbable scenarios is easier than confronting my very real situation.
A week ago, it was considering how I'd survive and rebuild my life after being "zeroed" - the most comprehensive case, often involving time-travel, where other peoples' memories and even physical evidence of my past are erased. Today, it was how I'd go about tidying up my life and arranging for people to be notified if I somehow became aware that I was absolutely going to die tomorrow.
I've always had detailed but irrelevant brainstorming sessions like this (I've previously worked out how to ask for mercy from Baba Yaga, how I'd end my life in the case of a total civilization collapse, and a legal/moral argument about the injustice of shunning someone for being unsympathetic, and then for refusing to shun another). On some level, this is just how my mind works, taking certain problems as challenges to my intellect. But I also wonder if lately, working on these improbable scenarios is easier than confronting my very real situation.
