An unfortunate pattern
Aug. 20th, 2003 12:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Something I just put together tonight; the pattern is clear, in memory, the process less so.
Often, after I've gotten frustrated and/or righteously angry at someone (thing), I will swing (or crash) to the other pole: self-doubt, depression, etc. I question whether I was right or wrong in the first place, my worth as a person, and my continued participation in whatever it was that set me off.
I wonder if, like users of certain drugs, I'm burning all of my brain chemicals in one hot flash and then losing the ability to feel good thereafter. Or maybe I'm hella emotionally fragile for some other reason(s).
Often, after I've gotten frustrated and/or righteously angry at someone (thing), I will swing (or crash) to the other pole: self-doubt, depression, etc. I question whether I was right or wrong in the first place, my worth as a person, and my continued participation in whatever it was that set me off.
I wonder if, like users of certain drugs, I'm burning all of my brain chemicals in one hot flash and then losing the ability to feel good thereafter. Or maybe I'm hella emotionally fragile for some other reason(s).