Not enough time

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Not enough time. I spend nearly every waking hour in front of a computer now; call it 14 on a typical day, with 2 hours of miscellaneous errands and the remaining 8 (or more often, 7 or 6) given grudgingly to sleep. And it's still not enough. I have more games than I have time to play, more music than I have time to listen to, more information than I have time to read and assimilate. I'm overloaded - me, with only a part-time job, no commute to speak of, and a social calendar that barely occupies five hours a week.

I'm tired all the time lately. I short myself habitually, staying up to do one more thing. I try to catch up on the weekends, but that's no healthier a solution than bulimia. I've considered naps in the afternoons, but that would just mess up my sleep schedule further - probably fragment it so badly I'd have trouble telling what day it is. Not that "day" means much this time of year.

Those four hours a day are stretching as I find I have to stay longer to get the work done, because I'm spending time on the net at my desk. The boundary between work and play is eroding. I worry more about my job, my performance. But I still hit 'refresh' during every idle moment, or even when I just don't want to face the in-basket.

Internet addiction is a particularly tricky one to deal with - in my circles, my interests, it's a bit like being addicted to food. (Something which, at 260 lbs. and a four-can-a-day soda habit, I probably qualify for as well.) It's not something I can give up; I can only try to manage it responsibly.

"I don't feel like I'm in control" - cry for help, woeful lament, bitter curse, feeble self-pitying excuse. Pick any four.


Maybe I should lie down for a bit.

Comments

[miladycarol.livejournal.com]

I think part of it is the season. I am just plain tired all the time lately. I've got so much to do and I'm having trouble keeping it all together. People keep inserting miscellany events into my schedule and I'm horribly doublebooked. I hate this. I feel like I've lost control of my life as well. I'm holding out for January when I can cut back on my hours and gain the satisfaction of knowing that it is getting lighter earlier each day. Maybe we should start a mutual support group. *smile*

[biomekanic.livejournal.com]

well, try napping. 20 - 30 minutes in the afternoon. I used to be able to take when at one of my old jobs, and it did wonders for me. see if there's some place you can do this in your office. do a google search on power napping.

as for the soda thing... 1 can a day a year can pack on 10 lbs...

[deromilly.livejournal.com]

I know how you feel. DH always says, we can do anything, with enough time and money. When we have one, we don't seem to have the other. Currently, I'm short on time, too. So much I want to stitch, to dance, to design, to paint. Not nearly enough time to do it. The holidays don't help. I, too, find myself with a list of things at work that I don’t want to do, and which I find myself replacing with other activities (not internet, generally, as corporate Big Brother monitors my usage). Generally, the other activities are work related, just not what would get me through my to do pile faster.

Power napping? Its an offense punishable by termination at my current company, despite it's proven worth in studies.
{{{Hugs}}} to you.

[biomekanic.livejournal.com]

Power napping? Its an offense punishable by termination at my current company, despite it's proven worth in studies.

Same here, unless I go out to my car and do it